Reminder....

Hello again,

It has been over a year, since I posted something. I have written, rewritten, and erased many times.... I was recently reminded of this phrase "clouds don't last" by a dear friend. God gives us seasons of rest, work, pain, grief, joy...etc. I believe this last year has been a year of rest for me. I feel more at peace with who I am and where I want to go in life. I am ready to share more, do more and live more. The horizon is bright at the beginning and end of a story. I am ready to share more of my story. Life is beautiful and messy. I believe the messy moments are where our character is developed. Our character is very important. It is the core of who we are! March is one of my favorite months. I am going to share some special moments in my life this month. Please join me in this Journey ahead! Stay tuned in. 

Blessings❤️ 

Kel

The Little People Who Have Changed My LIFE.

I have been thinking about writing this for the past two years. I find it fitting with a number of plans I have for this new year, it is time to share my story.

I am beyond blessed to say I have been touched by Autism. This month is my tenth year working with these amazing children. I have worked with children diagnosed as early as 16 months to 14 years. I started out as an in home tutor, became an advising tutor helping to train new tutors, and then became a supervisor and had a case load of 17 children.

I have been trained in the theories of ABA (applied behavior analysis) and DTT (discrete trial training). I am well versed in the uses of PECS (picture exchange communication systems), Pivotal Response Training, and TEACCH. As well as, was a 1:1 aid in a classroom with one of the children I supervised.

I have done many hours of parent and family training for which, I feel as if they taught me so much more than I ever taught them!!! I have the greatest empathy and admiration for the parents of these children. Although, I have lots of training..... life and practical experience have taught me more.

Currently, I work in a classroom as an Instructional Assistant. We have 9 Boys, as with all children on the spectrum they are so different and unique. Everyday is a new challenge and the amazing ladies I am blessed to work with make the toughest days, easier.

I can go on and on about all I have experienced good and bad. I probably have enough material to write two books and maybe someday I will. But, I know I am a better person for all I have learned and experienced working with these amazing children and families!!

There are many highs and lows in the work that I do, but the highs out way the lows!!

Blessings on your journey! As I know I am excited to be on mine.

❤, Kel

Understanding...

I often reflect on all that has happened in my life and wonder, what I have learned from it all. My childhood was not the greatest at times. My teenage years, were fun. My adulthood has brought challenges I never thought I would have to face. During, those years I have had to deal with many people. I believe truth, facts and kindness disarms most. In My 37 1/2 years I have learned to be who you are in spite of everyone.

There are three kinds of people in your life; the ones who are by your side and cheer you on no matter what, the ones who wish you well from a far, and the ones who don't understand why you do what you do.

Well I understand more and more Just as Joshua walked around the Walls of Jericho ...that we must not stop marching. I am blessed through all my circumstances and I am learning to live a Joyful Life in spite of it all! Because, I know there is a purpose!

This was part of my Devotion today from the life Surrendered plan on You Version.

"You and I were placed on this earth to bring our Heavenly Father glory. And lots of it. Your tumultuous circumstance may be the very catalyst that helps someone see Jesus. I really only have one thing left to say to you.

March on. And one day, your walls will fall, too."

I know they will one day and until then I will March ON!!

❤, Kel

Intuition....

Honestly, I should have listened to mine a good handful of times. I did not heed the pounding in my chest and the still small voice. I believe God has given women an extra sense. I believe if we listened to that STILL small voice more often it could save us from many heartaches.

I know we as women can be blinded by the desire for things that we want versus the things we need. I have fallen on my face and gotten back up again. Don't get me wrong the falls have been heart crushing to the point of being on the floor in the fetal position for hours. At the end of those moments God has Reminded me, I am here once again to hold you and comfort you.

So I guess, I am writing this to Remind us all to heed and listen to your STILL small voice!

Blessing, ❤Kel

Coping

I have many things I do to cope or get through the difficulties of life. I pray, cry, talk to my best friends and trusted family members, listen to music, take a nap, and write.

Can you relate?! The most heart wrenching moments are unexpected. Although, most of the time they are the ones that help shape the person you're supposed to become.

Love and loss are usually the moments that change us. I personally, have had to deal with both. Then having to Deal with difficult people, often moves our character forward or backward.

Kindness seems to be the best way to disarm the pain another person may be going through. I have learned to respond to what is most important and let them know you are available.

We never know what someone else is going through. Before, you judge or make an assumption stop and put your self in their shoes. Maybe, it is their way of coping with their difficulties.

❤Kel

The glass...

.... can be half full, even when you don't see it. My heart still aches, but the healing has began again.

This heart of my is STRONG. I long to be held, caressed, told how beautiful I am. I know that day may not come and I am fine if it doesn't. The desire is still there and I am sure it will always be. I have loved and been loved.

I just think it wasn't as perfect as I thought it was. They both have taught me so much about who I truly am. I really love myself and Who...God wants me to be. There are certain doors He will open and then I will be able to continue on this amazing Journey.

So, for now I will wait and Praise him in this Hallway of My Life. I have not changed, I am consistent, I am loving, I am honest, I am forgiving, and I am trust worthy.

❤Kel

Missing Someone...

Sometimes it is very hard not to reach out.

I know it is BEST that I don't.

My heart aches because, time takes its sweet time.

I don't want to love you anymore, but I still do.

When you pour your heart and soul into a relationship and it gets cut off....everything is uneven.

My Pain is my Pain. My Hurt is my Hurt.

I wish I knew why.
Sometimes, it is just for you to move to where you are supposed to be.

❤