The glass...

.... can be half full, even when you don't see it. My heart still aches, but the healing has began again.

This heart of my is STRONG. I long to be held, caressed, told how beautiful I am. I know that day may not come and I am fine if it doesn't. The desire is still there and I am sure it will always be. I have loved and been loved.

I just think it wasn't as perfect as I thought it was. They both have taught me so much about who I truly am. I really love myself and Who...God wants me to be. There are certain doors He will open and then I will be able to continue on this amazing Journey.

So, for now I will wait and Praise him in this Hallway of My Life. I have not changed, I am consistent, I am loving, I am honest, I am forgiving, and I am trust worthy.

❤Kel

Missing Someone...

Sometimes it is very hard not to reach out.

I know it is BEST that I don't.

My heart aches because, time takes its sweet time.

I don't want to love you anymore, but I still do.

When you pour your heart and soul into a relationship and it gets cut off....everything is uneven.

My Pain is my Pain. My Hurt is my Hurt.

I wish I knew why.
Sometimes, it is just for you to move to where you are supposed to be.

❤

Life

•When you trust God to fulfill the promises He's given you, all the forces of darkness cannot stop God from bringing your dreams to pass.

•Everything you need for your destiny is within reach. Pray that God will open your eyes to opportunities, people and resources.

•No matter where we are in life, God has more in store. He never wants us to quit growing.

•Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. -1Cor 13:7

•Your word is your honor. If you say you're going to do something, then you need to do it.

•Life is a tapestry: We are the warp; angels, the weft; God, the weaver. Only the Weaver sees the whole design. -Eileen Freeman

•Choose not to settle. Pursue your God-given goals, knowing it’s never too late to accomplish everything God has placed in your heart.

~~~These are quotes and bible verses that have touched my soul. The hurt and pain of once again loving someone who didn't love me enough to stay.

I know I am worth more. I am strong and willing to move mountains if needed. I am loving, kind, honest, loyal and trust worthy. I love hard and deep. I only want the best for the people in my life, even those people who have hurt me. I know this just another step to where God wants me to be. I ask that he mold and shape me. I know each next step may not be easy, but I am willing to walk this path. I pray and hope my pain will bless others.

❤ Kel

Gut Check

Do you ever feel like you have been punched so hard emotionally, that all you can do is take it.

Then go run and hide. The emotions I feel are angry, hurt and frustrated.

Writing is all I can do to breathe and let go. Crying, sometimes releases it as well. I wish we could all take a moment to be in each others shoes. We all process loss and grief differently. I hate being told I am being disrespectful. When all I am doing is the trying to understand where you are coming from.

Everyone has to come to a point in their life when they have to evaluate what is most important. We all have moments that push us in one direction.

The direction can be forward or backward. There are times I have felt I have gone two steps forward, but then five steps back. In those times you must press forward and allow the challenge to move you. A Gut Check can be a good thing.

When was your last Gut Check?

❤Kel

Insecurities

What are yours?

Mine are:

Feeling unworthy of love.
Am I good enough?
Not being pretty enough.
Does he want me forever?
What is going to happen in five years?

My List could go on......
 
Life is not secure.
I believe we all have to make the best of the moments we are given.
Insecurities are in all of us. We all have them to some degree.

They vary for each of us do to our life experiences.
I feel for me I have lived enough life experiences for two lives.
The thing to do is not allow them to control you.

I saw this Pin on Pinterest the other day>>>
It made me really STOP and think!!



We are all in Search of our Happiness...but we rob ourselves of it more often than not.
Having "Insecurities" and focusing on them takes away your Happiness as well as your JOY.

Trying to be Perfect...sucks.

Do you ever feel like throwing in the towel?

Sometimes...no matter what you say, how you say it, what you do, or how you do it...it's just wrong. I do try my best in all things. Often, I fail. I don't have a hard time saying "sorry". I do have a hard time when I have my feelings hurt to let things go. I know when I am hurt or frustrated, my tone of voice changes.

I have struggled with this my whole life. I am constantly thinking about it. "It is not what you say, it is how you say it"!!! I know, I am not the only one in the world that struggles with this. Although, it sure feels like it. I am a very emotional person. I wear my heart on my sleeve.

I like to talk it out, not run away from it. Communication is the key to any good relationship. It is not easy. Especially, when you feel hurt. As well as, having something to say that is difficult to talk about. I believe it is often harder to communicate when you have been hurt by a person's words. I know for me I am very trusting and loyal. So, once I feel betrayed or hurt it takes time to repair the damage.

I don't intentionally hurt people. But, I may come off that way. I always try to take others feeling before mine. I know when I am hurt it is hard for me to do that. Taming our mouths is hard. I have learned that it is best to stay quiet and count to 10. It is important to recognize your weaknesses.

Often, I find reading the bible and praying...before reactng is the best thing.
I wish I would always do it.
I am Hoping to do it more.

My Song.....

A Song wrote for Me. By a dear Sweet Friend
God knew.... She would need me in her life.
I am thankful and blessed she is in my Life!!
I am beyond Blessed to have gone through my pain to show her there is always.... 
Sunshine after the rain and Clouds Don't Last.


Dark days, sleepless nights Cloudy haze, I can't take this fight A bright moon, but still no sun I wanna win this war but I've only just begun.

My body aches, my eyes burn red The smile I fake, no one listens to a word I've said The hurt I feel has me living in fear My pain is real but I've cried my last tear.

What happened to the girl who was strong and always had a song in her heart? I need to break away from this loneliness I think todays a great day to start. I can't dwell, though its hard, I can't continue in my past I had a friend once say that clouds don't last...

One step, at a time Got a grip on what once was mine Feeling more, every day Still unsure, til I hear that friend say

What happened to the girl who was stong and always had a song in her heart? You need to break away from the loneliness, I think todays a great day to start You can't dwell, though its hard, you can't be living in your past You need to hear me say that clouds don't last

So I'm taking her advice and looking to the sky I see a ray of sun thats finally breaking through And I smile for the first time and my eyes can finally see That there's a life thats awaiting me...

Now I'm the girl who is strong and always has a song in my heart I broke away from the loneliness, I picked a great day to start I don't dwell, it was hard but I aint livin in the past. I'm glad I listened when she said that clouds don't last

That friend was right, and her words I can pass I'll tell you the same, your clouds won't last...

Revised and dedicated to you.


In Awe...all I can say is I adore and love her very much.