Beauty from Ashes...............

Where to start???!!!... I guess here it goes.

I am almost 36 and I think and know my Life has been full of tragedy and beauty. I have so much I want to say. So, please bear with me. I may be a bit scattered until I figure out what and how to write it all. I will promise you this, I will write from my heart and share my beauty and ashes of my Life.

I have watched loved ones die and little ones be born. I have held a friends hand in triumph and hugged a friend in pain. I have seen and watched my mother walk a rough road filled with almost unbelievable events that I would not believe them if I was not apart of them. I know what I have experienced will not go without impacting others. I know first hand there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Even though it is so real you never feel as if your going to reach it.

The Beauty of My Life:
          is watching the sunrise on a new day, even when you can't get out of bed to meet that day.
          is being able to hug your daughter even when you know the world around you is falling apart.
          is loving someone unconditionally and knowing at the end of the day they are your soft place to fall.
          is always having Friends who will be there no mater what and willing to just listen.
          is having Family that have beared a lot of my pain. They have carried me in their prayers and thoughts and I am eternally grateful.

The Ashes of My Life:
          is being with someone for almost 12years and your life ripped out from underneath you.
          is knowing your Mom has tried to commit Suicide four times and constantly having in the back of your mind that you may get that phone call again.
          is being a child of divorce and never wanting my child to experience the same pain.
          is having to deal with the pain of physical/emotional abuse as a child and learning to know it was not your fault.

The Beauty and Ashes of a Savior who has walked every mile with me and carried me toooo many times to count. I know without a shadow of any doubt in my mind that is why I can sit and write all of this down. My Angels have been on double duty my whole life. Hoping this year will give them a bit of a break.

I am the beauty in the ashes from a life filled with pain. I always try and see the good in everyone and the beauty that is in all of us. <3

"Say ,What you Need to Say" will be next.........