Change Brings Gifts!

I know what Love is...but not sure if I'll ever be able to keep it.

It is so hard to be the one who is told...."It's just not going to work or I don't see a future for us"....after all that you have gone through with that special person or so you thought. As well as, thinking your love was unconditional....but I guess it just was not that way at the moment.

What do you do with all the pictures and cards??!!... that meant soooo much. It's hard to let go and move on especially when you had the intentions to be in it for the long haul. I guess not having your say and how you felt about things makes it hard to grasp. Once the decision is made its made and there is no changing it. I very much dislike the pain...but I do know it will not go without a lesson learned and something once again to pass on.

I knew this year would be a year of change..but did not expect it to take a turn in certain areas. I have faults (quite a few which I don't hide them and hope to continue to work towards changing them) and "Baggage"... but who doesn't. We all have faults: Such as laziness in certain areas, we procrastinate, we have anger issues, hold things in and don't share our deepest fears, and we hide our pain and try our "BEST" to disguise it.

I can promise you in all of this.....I will hold the special memories close to my heart and the cherished time spent with those people who made a difference in my life for that time. One thing I have LEARNED is to be thankful in every situation and find what you need to grow and change from it. Not to say it does suck for a while, but that truly goes without saying...:)

Moving on and forward knowing that I am a strong woman who will love and do her best for those who are in her life. Walking through the open doors and allowing the doors that need to be closed are closed solid. Faithfully knowing I am not the one in CONTROL...but I have to do the work and follow my heart.

Looking forward to the Gifts that are coming with the change. A New Chapter Begins..........................

Kel<3